Hell isn't always fire and brimstone. 
Sometimes, it is a quiet, gilded trap. 
A place of impossible beauty that holds you captive not with fear, but with its own suffocating, perfect light.
Memory and perception. 
The gold is not the gold of autumn, but the gold of a fading dream, of a moment so intensely felt it has burned its color onto the world. The light doesn't fall. It pools, thick and heavy, turning the air into honey and the ground into a forgotten mirror.
To be lost here is a choice. It is the surrender to a personal truth that overpowers the common one. The path is not obscured by darkness, but by an overwhelming, luminous sameness. Every direction is the same beautiful, aching corridor. Every tree is a monument to a feeling I can't name.
Reality here is irrelevant. It is old because it feels ancient in my soul. It is golden because my gaze paints it so. 
I am wandering, and lost, within it. 
This is my hell on earth: not a punishment, but a state of being. A radiant, solitary confinement in a paradise of one's own making, where the only escape is to stop seeing the gold and start seeing the tree.

Or to accept that, sometimes, they are the very same thing.

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